dragontatt (dragontatt) wrote in goodmom_sadmind,

I just found this site right this very minute...

...but I figure I've found a good place for me.

I am a 40 year old SAHM mother of 2 girls, ages 5 and almost 3. I very recently stopped nursing my youngest (yay! for extended nursing for those who are able to do so) and when I stopped it was like after 5 1/2 years total of nursing. And the hormones made me go insane.

Well it seemed like it anyway- I've been miserable and having crying spells and being excessively quick to anger (always have been a little hair-triggered) and it's been terrible.

When I had my checkup I spoke to my doctor about it and he diagnosed severe depression and put me on prozac. I've only been taking it for 2 weeks. It seemed to help some, but it totally killed my sex life. So I spoke to my doctor about that and now I'm taking wellbutrin also- that's only been for 3 days though.

So far it seems like the major effect of the prozac was to make me sleep better, which I really did need cause I've always been an insomniac. I thought it was making me calmer, but then the last 2 days have really been terrible. Today was better though.

And the good news (!) is that the wellbutrin seems to have had the desired effect (hint, hint!). So maybe that's at least one thing I don't have to worry about anymore...*g*

My girls will be going off to school the end of August- one full time to kindergarten and one part time to preschool. So finally, for the first time since November of 2000, I will have time to myself without kids on a regular basis. Even if it is only 3 hours a day 3 times a week. Part of me is looking forward to that, the other part of me is afraid I won't know what to do with myself. I'm hoping the meds have kicked in good by then and I'll have more energy and desire to do stuff, as opposed to sitting on my couch all day surfing the web and reading my f-list.

One thing I have come to realize is that I've been depressed for a lot longer than just a few weeks-it's been years atleast and possibly most of my life- it was just the hormonal changes that made it sooooo bad that I couldn't deal with it or cover it up anymore. So I don't know how long it'll be before I feel good enough to go without the meds- hell, maybe never. But I've finally realized that feeling numb and lonely and miserable all the time isn't normal, and I want to feel better so I can be a better wife, better mother, better and happier me. You know- normal?

I'd be interested in finding people to email or chat with that have been going through the same things as me. So come on in and say 'hi'!
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